Monday, July 30, 2012

Guilt trip

Daniel is away at his Appacha-Ammachi's place for the past 2 months. TO tell that we have been missing him is an understatement. There is a Daniel shapped hole in our home and even in our hearts. THe waste basket seems to be just a waste basket now; but when he was here it was the subject of endless possibilites. He used to explore the contents of it, as if they were some precious matter :P Sigh... Life was so interesting with him around...

Did i say so when he was here??? I dont think i did. I kept whining about how he wont even leave the waste basket alone :( I wish i did see things through his eyes and let him be .... And i was watching the videos we so often take and i so clearly uderstood the reason for his reverence towards his appa. In all the videos i am either telling him not to do something or talking to him in a stern voice. Whereas Gin, is always laughing or goofing around with him.. In every single one .... Sigh i wish i was the fun parent too. Well, i can give excuses that i was more at home with him and i did so for his personal safety or that i was physically drained.. But in his little brain, Mamma is the whine-parent and Appa the fun-parent!!!!!!!!!

Little Daniel, Mamma's Dangupie,.... I promise to be more patient and let you enjoy your toddlerhood with more enthusiasm and not with irritation, that i will have to again clean the floor after you upturn the wastebasket... Sorry to be the reprimanding Mamma that i am.. I hope you understand that it was for your own saftey or discipline.. Well, let us forget what is past... I will try not to yell or whine and go chase the world with your wild goofy smile and whooping enthusiasam... :)

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